Saving Lives
We’ve had a great year at Pur Detox. Numbers of people we are helping are still on the rise and we are looking forward to even greater expansion in the new year. I wanted to share a testimonial from one of our recent completions.
September 15, 2009
To the staff of Pur Detox:
Just about 10 days ago I had a plan in action to take my life. I had been hoarding pills and the option to take them became a very viable answer to the total hopelessness I was feeling.
I have an incredible husband of 36 years and 4 children. The youngest is 4 and oldest 34. Today, the thought that I could actually choose to leave my family sends pure terror down my body.
Looking back, I did have the tools to know I had to have help; I could not do alone what I considered to be a lack in strength and intelligence. I knew that what I was doing was not working; every visit to the psychiatrist was just an addition of medication. It was as if I became completely lacking in feelings (up or down) then he had done his job. I turned my computer on and by my belief, the Grace of God opened the web page of Pur Detox. Alternative—Naturopathic—off medications not medically needed (or working) and using vitamin, mineral, all natural supplements? Was this my answer? It took only a second to ask for a call back. The call came in seconds and my questions were answered and something outside of my power loudly let me know this was what I was looking for.
Being a state away from this facility, I was met by a staff member within 5 hours of that call. I knew instinctively that this was exactly where I was supposed to be. I could hardly move, speak, eat, drink; however, I could believe that something might actually help me; I could sit in the possibility of a return to life. Although my first day was a holiday, the Medical Director came to the facility to assist in the beginning of a process to help me feel comfortable in my skin. There was something in this action that gave me the feeling that these people cared about me—someone in this world (other than my family) wanted me to know that I was worth feeling good; I was worth the time of these incredible people, even on a holiday! Me, who was just ready to leave this world being worthless, poor in spirit, lost, and terrified.
I have now experienced a group of men and women who are willing to walk to the beach at 1:00 AM if it might help in how I feel. I believe that is a very hard thing to dismiss. These wonderful people seemed to know intuitively what I needed (not necessarily what I wanted) and I believed in their way.
By day 4 here, I had a voice back, I had a smile back, again I say, I believed so strongly this was the right place for me. My body began to stop hurting, I began sleeping, eating, laughing, looking at a beautiful future. It has not always been easy and uphill—but there was always someone to help me see good, to help me see I was not alone. I was not condemned to live in a world of shadows; a world where I could not play with my 4 year old or my grandsons; a world that I could not be there for my husband and grown children. I realized I had hope again and my smile, (inside and out) began to grow. I know hope.
I no longer take (or crave) a medication (this includes benzodiazepines, antidepressants, hormone replacement therapy, just to name a few). These have been replaced and balanced in my system in a natural way from the help detox at Pur.
I am writing only a few hours from leaving for home—a very short time to change my entire life. I do live in reality and know that it is not always going to be easy and someone will be there with an answer. I do know that change can occur and I know I can pick up the phone at anytime and talk with someone who knows and cares.
My husband and youngest daughter visited me just a few days ago and out of the mouth of babes, my 4 year old said “Momma, you have light in your eyes”. Is there a better testimony? Not for me—I want to be there as a Mom with that light—one that is real and not dimmed by medication/drugs.
If I wanted the research base, I could find it—it would only affirm what I am experiencing. I don’t need to look at the research—I want to live my life that has been returned to me.
I have never had to prove myself to anyone here. When I first walked through the doors, I had a feeling that I was trusted and I was believed. When I was unable to sleep at night—I was encouraged to sleep whenever I could. Rest is good for the body and soul. I have been in other facilities and there is no comparison for me. I truly believe I will live a longer and happier life continuing to do what I have been taught here. When I need help, I know where to call; I know where my call will be welcomed as coming home.
I was told last night by a dear friend who is also a patient here that I was the funniest person she had ever known. She is talking about someone who was unable to smile only a week ago. I laugh, I cry, I feel.
I would name the staff, but there are too many. Words can’t express what I feel about each and every one of you. You each have a very special place in my heart. My gratitude goes beyond what time provides me. From my heart and soul, thank you for believing in me and helping me cleanse body and soul. I have hope; I need say no more. I finally got found the marijuana detox that saved my life.
Thank You,
N.B.
